Sunday, October 19, 2008

Today, i think

Today, i think we might need some system that should have some space for human loneliness or to real very personal level truth.
For instance, other then myself every other being / thing is a some one else, and at very personal level i see it differently and i must have some some opinion about that, might be negative / positive.
There are so many realities, very small incidents / happenings, that we want to talk about, those are interesting to know, to talk about or to may be write about, but in most of the time we don't want people to expose our self.
We want to share our very personal feelings but we don't want to be exposed.

For example, what i think today

Today, i met with my friend (Let's call him Mr. K), he introduced me with two of his colleagues, one is i don't even remember thier names (okay, let's call them Maria and Usman). When Mr. K introduced me to them, its was okay kind of experience, but i had a feeling like, both of his colleagues doesn't like me (they didn't accept my presence, because i was there, so some how they have to bother me :( ), then they start talking to each other about the people, who were just alien for me, and specially, what i really hates is, that girl (Maria), was intentionally tried to ignore me (that makes feel bad), first i tried to be good with them, but early i feel its not gonna happen, so, i became uncomfortable with them, although my friend K was also trying to keep me in the conversation, but because of the fact that Maria talks a lot, so it didn't fly either.
Anyways, i started feeling myself as a bore guy, although i believe i am not. And being a boring personality, i hate it.
Whatever, but when i drop them to their office, both were okay, but in a different space. Having context less conversion, or relation, i feel like i never want to talk to them, they might feel the same.